Let me apologize now...

****WARNING: I'M FEELING A LITTLE GOOFIER THAN NORMAL****


I'm definitely in a better mood today.

So what, I didn't get the job, but my life's not over something else will come along (I hope). But I'm really starting to get excited about the trip that is in the works. The researching has begun, the time has been booked off and the moolah set aside. Initially, it was only supposed to be me and *Miss Wonderful* which was cool it would give us a chance to get to know eachother better and of course party! But now ~Sabe~ has joined in the planning and excitement. Yay! we're now a threesome...uh wait that has a few too many sexual innuendos attached. The three musketeers, no no that's too corny. Ah I got it! We're now a tripod. I know you're thinking "WTF?!" But honestly it's the best fit, because we're there to support eachother and if one of us is a little out of whack then the others try to fix the wobble.

Please understand that I am aware that my thought process is often a little peculiar but without these ladies I have a very strong feeling that "they"(the powers that be) would have put me in a padded room long long ago. I can just imagine the lazy days at the beach, the numerous fruity concoctions with umbrellas, the gorging at the buffet, the random pictures, and of course, the nursing of the sun burns. Cheers to the all inclusive travel packages and sunny destinations!!

Today I am thankful for nothing...

So I *finally* got a call from that company I'd been waiting to hear back from. The woman I spoke to was very nice about everything saying that it had come down to myself and someone else, but that they had chosen to go with the other person because they had more experience. Clearly that is the rational choice but give me a break people!!! That is such an easy out. These days a lot of graduates can't get a job because they don't have any experience and we can't get the experience because NO ONE WILL GIVE US JOBS!!! Anyway the woman was nice and said that they would like to keep my resume on file because "you know how things go". Aw gee ma'am that's super swell, yet another organization that has my resume rotting away in some filing cabinet; how did I ever get to be so lucky!?!?

AARRRGHHHH!!!!! Frogive me folks, I'm so incredibly frustrated. This was definitely not what I had wanted going into my birthday weekend. How's that for a present, eh? And yes I did just say EH! I am from Canada after all, isn't that the stereotype I should fit into?? Sorry, seems that sarcasm is my friend today. I hope that April turns out to be a better month for me, I'm so liable to completely lose it on the next dumbass customer at work who asks me where they can get a catalogue/where the restaurant is/why we take postal codes/in other words ANYTHING!


Sorry, bitchfest over.

The Modicum of Mediocrity

Yesterday nearly drove me out of my mind due to anxiety, and today hasn't been too much better. I had an interview on Thursday (which I beleive I may have mentioned) and they said that they hoped to have a decision made by Monday. So all day I kept checking my machine which turned out to be a complete act of futility. They never left a message, in fact they had mentioned something about having someone call to test my conversational french skills and since that had not happened I was more than ready to concede defeat. That was until 8pm when I got a call from the Executive Director of the association. She was calling from London ENGLAND!! (and it was 2AM there) She was the person that was to test my French, we talked for a bit and everything seemed to go really well. So then I got my hopes up again, damnit!

And what did that lead to? Me checking my machine all day again today, hoping that they were going to call and tell me that I got the job. Obviously wishful thinking on my part. I may not get the job but at least I can appreciate that I made such a big impression on them that the the Executive Director felt compelled to stay up until 2AM and call me from England, essentially, just to chat. But I still really want(ed) that job!

On the up-side a lovely friend of mine found a great job site Peter's New Jobs which lists all the new posting from various sites and categorizes them as Private Sector, Government, or Recruiters (staffing agencies) to make things super easy. This is going to save me sooooo much time, because everything is in one place, as opposed to searching five individual sites over the course of hours!! (**Miss Wonderful, you are just that**)

I'm feeling like a complete bore because that call has been the highlight of my week (thus far). If you are looking for something a little more dramatic, edge of your seat, only in the movies kind of stuff have a look at Scotty's Day. Ugh, ok I know it's only like 9:30 but I am totally ready for bed, I think I'm going to crash. I'm getting so old!!

After the Dazzle of the Day

After the dazzle of day is done,
Only the dark, dark night shows to my eyes the stars;
After the clangor of organ majestic, or chorus, or perfect band,
Silent, athwart my soul, moves the symphony true.

-Walt Whitman

So yeah it's friday....

I don't really have anything to say but I felt that I should check in. I'm pretty happy that I don't have to go into work tomorrow, having saturdays off are so rare and awesome! No big plans for tonight except maybe some off-key singing along with my stereo, watching a bit of the idiot box, then reading a few chapters of a great book before bed. I think I may try to scrounge up some change to do a load of laundry tomorrow too. Boy oh boy does this ever sound like a super duper crazy fun couple of days!!! lol sarcasm is my friend.

Haha, anyway everything definitely pales in comparison to next weekend. And why's that because not only do I have the Friday, Saturday AND Sunday off from work, my parents are coming to visit me (I haven't seen them since Christmas) and best of all.....

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Yay!! And hopefully on Monday I'll find out whether or not I got that new job, keep your fingers crossed for me. I could use all the luck possible. *thumbs up*

The Gym is EEEEVIL!!!

Went to the gym tonight with a girlfriend, we took the body flow class at Goodlife. I figured that it would be a mellow low impact exercise class, easy stuff for a wednesday night. Uh NO!! Low impact yeah but anything but mellow!! Sure the movement are all pretty gentle and fluid but holy crap it's harder than it looks.

Body flow is a combination of Tai Chi, Pilates and Yoga; the Tai Chi I like, Pilates uh not so much and Yoga what the hell?? Who knew that downward dog would kill my legs/ass and that the warrior would make my legs and abs quiver and burn?!?! Or that pretending to be a tree or a star for that matter was so friggin' hard.

Now that I've had a chance to sit and relax a little I'm finding that my muscles are kinda twitching!! Even my ass....it's twitching. lol EXERCISE MAKES YOUR ASS TWITCH!! Why do people do this?! Funny thing is I've agreed to go back, on friday and at 7AM for crying out loud!!! Oh and this time my punishment is a class called PUMP! It's all done with weights, I think I've lost my mind. Going to the gym at 7AM is bad enough but to do a weight lifting class, that's just insane!! I suppose that it will all pay off when I look super hot at the beach, because isn't that the real reason why people get into a crazy workout phase around this time of year?

Anyway, I absolutely have to go take a hot bath to relax my twitchy muscles because God forbid I go to my job interview tomorrow with a twitchy ass. THAT would definitely be awkward!!!

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And her heart grew a few sizes...

So as always I've been looking for a new job, because let's face it there's no way that I want to spend the rest of my life at IKEA as a cashier. That would be a complete waste of the last 4 years that I spent in university working on getting my degree. I could've just flushed all that cash down the toilet for all that I have accomplished thus far. Whoops, there I go off on a tangent again, back to my point. I was bouncing around on Charity Village and I decided to check out the volunteer opprotunites because honestly it's not always all about me. Even though I'll admit that I sometimes think it should be.

Anyway there was a posting that really jumped out at me, and I've already gotten in contact with the volunteer co-ordindator to get involved. Child Find Ontario is looking for volunteers to help educate parents about the unknown dangers that are out there.

Their website is just this huge mass of information, some is a little surprising, some is just sad but for the most part they are just trying to get the information out to the communities that there is someone out there working to keep things a little safer for children. It's definitely worth a read. For instance, there's probably a lot about Child Find that people don't know like "Child Find Ontario is dedicated to reducing the incidence of missing and exploited children and youth in Ontario. Child Find works closely with law enforcement agencies, social service agencies, lawyers, and corporate partners on behalf of missing children and their families. Child Find Ontario has been endorsed by the Ontario Association of Chiefs of Police and is recognized by the RCMP/National Missing Children Services. Last year, Child Find tracked a 98% successful recovery rate for the cases with which we were involved. We have helped to recover over 500 missing, runaway and abducted children and teens, some as long as 11 years after being reported missing. Of 11 cases featured on monthly corporate billing envelopes last year, seven children were recovered. One out of every six recovered children is found because someone saw their photograph and it generated a tip. Media, law enforcement and our North American and international partner agencies regard Child Find Ontario as the leader in this field. "

Ok so that's my little heart-felt mushy rant for this afternoon, but I really believe that we should all be doing something to better ourselves and our communities. So get out there and volunteer people!! Even if it's just hanging out helping at a community centre, be proactive because if we don't do something help and make some kind of difference in society no matter how small, then it could all just go to shit!

Rant over.

Sweetest thing...

Greetings to my fellow internet savvy bloggers, how goes? Wow! Really, that's great!! Just thought I'd throw that out there, because seriously how many times a day do we all feel like we just kinda blend into the background and go unnoticed. Well, I know that you're out there!!

But today I was kinda glad that I was able to just watch the things that were going on without really worrying about whether or not people noticed. While I was waiting in line to get my usual Tim Horton's in the morning (I absolutely do not function without it) I saw what had to be one of the sweetest things ever. An elderly couple had walked by heading towards the tables to enjoy their coffees, the husband pulled out the chair for his wife, gave her a sweet little kiss and a pat on the bum. It was totally adorable. It didn't hurt that I had my own little soundtrack going with Jack Johnson either, everything in that moment just seemed to fit. I just remember thinking "Aww that's so cute!" I hope that when I'm their age I'm still that much in love... provided of course that my husband doesn't turn into a wrinkly, wheezing gas-bag. Just kidding!! By that time I'd probably be a wrinkly old nag anyway so we'd still be a perfect fit!!

Anyhoo...I'm dreading the trip to the passport office to renew my passport for my tentative trip in may. Who really wants to wait in those stupid lines so some bozo with a superiority complex behind a little desk can tell me that Whoops! I forgot to initial here or fill out section 5.2 regarding previous travels on my forms and that I have to do that then get in line again. Ugh!! who made up these rules anyway?! But it will definitely all be worth it when (or if, at this point) I'm laying on the beach in Cuba in my new bikini enjoying one of my many margaritas. Ahh good times, I so can't wait because I who deserves it more than me? *smiles*

In other news, it seems that my absolute faboulousness is seeping through the net. How so, you ask. Apparently, little Scotty is already hooked and talking puppies!! But shared custody of a wonderul little pup between Ottawa and Cali would be way too burdensome. The sad little coos and whines when it comes time to leave and then of course there would be the puppy, who's heart could stand it? Unfortunately, I can't turn off my faboulousness but I can at least try to tone it down for Scott's sake. *wink* But I promise nothing!!

That's all for now so I'll c'ya in the funny pages folks.

Definitely been a while...

Ok so I've been neglecting my little world of what ifs, but I've still been posting on myspace so those of you who want to find me know you always can.

Anyway, today I got the most random email from someone I don't really know but kinda do. I know I know too vague. Here goes, so I read this guy's blog pretty frequently, I mean why not he's funny! But then out of the blue he email's me because I linked him on my blog (http://scotttowler.blogspot.com/) and he wants to know how I found him. How am I supposed to explain that. It was innocent enough but I totally felt like a stalker trying to explain it. It's like getting caught with your fingers in the cookie jar right before dinner! So in my classic style I say my piece and end off with the goofy little I'm-too-cute-to-get-mad-at-or-think-I'm-a-total-nutcase. Hopefully he digs it, 'cause I seriously do not want to end up reading something weird about myself on his blog, that would be totally uncomfortable I'd feel like I was snooping or reading someone's diary or something. Argh! why did I ever start reading people's stuff?!?! lol I totally can't help it though people are so interesting, well that and it keeps me out of trouble. Not that a little trouble every once in a while is such a bad thing *wink wink*

Ok people I've got to get some grub, c'ya!