Momentarily Enlightened

First, as you well know, things don’t always turn out the way that you want them to. But in these instances we have two options: the easy way and the hard way. The easy way is simple, and often the most chosen, we complain, make a fuss, all in all annoy everyone else around us until they feel the same way we do about the whole situation. Then there’s the hard way. With the hard way we grit our teeth and somehow make our way through the mess that has turned our life upside-down. There will be loss, there will be hurt but in the end we are stronger people, having shown that we maintained the courage of our convictions. That being said always choose the hard way and never compromise yourself for the sake of others because more often than not it’s not worth it.

Second, never be afraid to take chances because if you’re not willing to take the risk then you’re not ready to live the life you want. There are going to be a lot of things in life that present themselves and some might entail risky decisions while others will be clear. But know that it is always worth the risk even if things don’t turn out the way you hope, especially if you are able to learn from the outcome. If your future holds for you the choice to move for career, for love, or for what have you seriously consider it. Don’t put your life on hold. Remember you can always come back home, that’s the wonderful thing about home: it will always be there waiting for you.

Ugh! Random peeves

So wow, I've found that there are more and more things that annoy me or get on under my skin lately. Certain people. Things people do. Just the way life happens.

So let's begin at the root of everything....people!

I don't know why but it just seems that lately the people that I either really don't like or have a short temperance for are making their presence even more unwelcome. My roommate's girlfriend for one. I've never like her and I believe that originally the feeling was reciprocated because she was convinced that I was going after her boyfriend. Which couldn't be further from the truth. I like the goof on people and I could tell that it totally made his day when he tought that I was interested so, even to this day, I refuse to burst that little bubble. And frankly if she was worried that I was "after" her boyfriend or whatever she should take that up with him not me. She even told him that she didn't want him to go to the Rolling Stones concert in Toronto (summer 2003) because we, a group of ten or more of us, were staying at my 'rents place and she wasn't able to come with. And most recently, she went as far as to tell him that she didn't want us living together, but its not just the two of us we have other roommates too! But it's not just that. She's also pretty ignorant and ill-informed on things and in ceonversations she just says stuff that is completely irrelevant, not to mention retarded. ARRRGGGHHH!!!!!

Another person who really irks me is my new boss. Recently there was a re-shuffle at work and our department was to be graced with a new manager. Ok, so change is a necessary part of life but what came next was ridiculous!! Our new manager set about changing every aspect of business as we knew. Meaning that people who had been with this company doing the same job for anywhere from 2 to 7 years had to almost entirely re-learn all procedures!! These are not qualities of a good leader. It's not necessary to change somethign that works for something that doesn't. This man has obviously had his head up his arse for the last 4 years or so that he has been with the company.

But I digress, neither of these people will change for my benefit thus I must leave them to go about their lives, but I will retain the right to complain.

As for the things that people do, one of my biggest pet peeves is when I see an individual wearing a fur coat on public transportation. The fur trade is something that bothers me but that is an entirely separate issue. It would appear to me though that if you can afford to purchase a fur coat that you obviously have money and don't need to be on public transportatoin. Unless of course the reason you're on public transportation is because you spent all your money on that fur coat. In that case you have bigger problems.

Another pet peeve, is people who just stare at you in hopes that you will read their mind and realize that they would like you to move. Is it really all that difficult to say excuse me, I think not. However, we are just all supposed to be pyschic and realize that a blank often somewhat menacing stare means "please move, I would like to get past, thank you". For crying out loud through whatever means of biology are at work you were (assumedly) born with a larynx and vocal cords which make up what is often referred to as the voicebox, therefore you should be able to speak. And excuse me is the simplest of simple phrases to put together, so please give it a try!!

Of all the things that happen or annoy me the most has to be the things that just happen in life. Recently, a handful of my friends have either broken up with or gotten dumped by the person they were dating. These are good people I and I feel so bad for them because of what they are going through and wish that there was some way that I am able to help them. Then there's the people in my life that are so lonely and just want to be with someone, to love someone, share things with. Even then there is nothing I can do, and it just makes me feel so helpless. Why is it that life just has to be so hard and unaccomodating sometimes? There is so much hurt in the world already why does there have to be more? I just hate it because it is like this horrible realization that there really is no control over what happens in our lives. That these horrible things are just fated to happen. And these things are hard to accept because I was never really one of those big believers in fate or destiny or anything like that. I've got to be one of the biggest skeptics when it comes to things like that. And I just hate that life can hurt people the way that it does.

Damnit the whole thing sucks!

Sex & Women...Taboo?

Now, while celebrating one's birthday is fun, doing so on a Sunday night is not the ideal situation when you've got to work the next morning. Especially when those festivities include sitting at the Royal Oak downing concoction after concoction.

Nonetheless, this is what the girls and I did last night. Rather, that was what we did after standing outside freezing for 30 minutes waiting to get into Barrymore's. Obviously we gave up and walked across the street to the Oak. Anyway during the course of the evening and the alcohol consumption, conversation swayed itself towards things of the sexual nature. The more we sat there openly talking about sex and all things related the stranger the looks we got from the guys around us. It's not like we were talking about anything that was in anyway deviant or whatever. At one point we were talking about threesomes and girl/girl and the guy beside us just gave us the strangest of looks as if we were sitting there with straws sticking out of our hair and pizza hanging off our chins!

What is the big deal?? Why is there such a taboo attached to women talking about sex? It's not like guys don't do it. They do and often quite openly. So how is it different if it's women?! Obviously there is still a stigma associated with women in society. Regardless of the social advances we've made, we're still not supposed to talk about things like sex in public (or at all in some cases) because that's not something that "good girls" or "proper young ladies" do!

I live with two guys and when their friends are over all we seem to talk about is sex! So it's pretty normal that during the course of any given day I will at some point be talking about sex with someone. But I guess that there are just some people that aren't quite comfortable with women who talk about sex as openly as men do. And to them I say:


SUCK IT UP PRINCESS, WE ENJOY SEX TOO!!

BULLETIN: Truth's finally out!!!

Woo freaking hoo!!!!

P's ex finally set the record straight and told the world just how horrible she really is.
* she's vindictive
* she's self-centered
* she's uninformed and close minded
* she's down-right mean

It wasn't all in my head!!

The best part of all this is that he's finally found someone new and is totally smitten, it's adorbale. None of us could be happier for him either this new chica is a total sweetheart!

Why do people suck?

One thing that has been bothering me a lot lately is the ever degrading quality of people these days. I don't know what it is but there just seems to be alot more self-centered, self-righteous, negative all-round mean people out there

The one that stands out most in my mind is the chick that I was living with in 2003-/2004, P. Can we say nutbar? When we lived together I compromised myself and the things I believe in more times than I can count just to keep her happy because if it hit the fan you would not want to be around. And no matter what you did it always hit the fan! The worst times were when she and her boyfriend were arguing or fighting about something. Since I was the roommate, in her eyes, I was automatically expected to be on her "side". But to be honest she spent most, if not all her time, with her head up her butt and rarely had anything of substance to say anyway.

Unfortunately for the boy, they decided to move in together, along with two other people. And she contiued to make life difficult for everyone. Eventually the *happy* couple split because P was treating her bf like the ish from the bottom a dumpster. And life goes on la dee da da la dee da da for a little while anyway until they have a party at their house. Yay parties!! *Ahem sorry* So being the good friends that we are we all show up for a good time, and by the time we were all there P was already 3 sheets to the wind and decided that it would be a good idea to start screaming at me and making a spectacle of herself. Hmmmm nutbar and alcohol....doesn't sound like a good combination. Needless to say the evening progressed rather uneventfully after the drunken display of childishness. And when all was said and done I felt really sorry for her, still do. She has fee friends, no ambition, no clue, and a new bf that's only with her because she'll have sex with anyone.

But she's not the only mean spirited person that seems to have crossed my path in the recent past there have been others. There is one particular gent that I am rather pleased dumped my friend. I feel horrible about what's she's been going through but at the same time the guy was trouble. But she'll get over it.

I need to meet normal...or whatever is considered to be relatively normal people! I understand that everyone has some sort of bagage but is it too much to ask that at least 75% of society be sane? Or at least able to carry on some kind of sane conversation? I think not! Unfortunately for me, my mother, bless her heart, is pushing for me to find myself a man and settled down but given the current ratio of unstable people to somewhat sane people I believe her desires may go unfulfilled.

At least for a while anyway.

Greetings from a skeptic

Well here I am....

This is certainly something that I never really saw myself doing, posting the strange events of my life, the scarey inner workings of my mind, the rants/raves and all around weird things I think about online. My friends are avid bloggers and frankly I never understood the desire to blog until we discussed the whole matter. They find that the blogging helps them, its like they're able to talk to someone without having to listen to the bad advice that others will undoubtedly offer up. So here I am, willing to try because you can't go about life doing the same things all the time, that only makes for very boring people.

Let the cleansing powers of the blog begin!