Bemused

....with my laptop!

I suppose this is what happens when you try to juggle work and school as much as I do. I'm rethinking the 7 courses that I am enrolled in this fall....what on earth was going through my head?? I have a full time job for crying out loud!!

Work is super hectic for me at the moment, so much so that I am currently taking a break from the work that I brought home with me. What really sucks the most about this is that I've been sacrificing a social life for work and school. Worse yet is that my friends don't understand my desire to continue in school. We all completed our degrees at essentially the same time but I'm the only one who's gone back to do more. I'm not content to just stick it out at my current job and party it up on the weekend, I want more.

I also think that being the first of my friends to have bought a house is also a pretty big difference too. Most of my friends are primarily focused on their boyfriends/girlfriends, parties, pets and work (in that order too). Which can also be a little hard to deal with sometimes being the only singleton in the group. Being single, 27 and owning my own car and home seems to be pretty intimidating to men. I just don't get it. Most of my guy friends say that chicks that are clingy, needy or flighty are such a waste of time and energy but on the other end of the spectrum independence, self-sufficiency and the ability to think also seems to be difficult to live with.

In a perfect world, if I could custom order a man, here are some of the things that I would want built in:

- taller than me (5'8 or more because I'm 5'7)
- dark hair
- great smile/eyes (a nice butt wouldn't hurt either lmao)
- post secondary education (college or university, something!)
- has some personal goals and is driven to acheive them but is not arrogant
- has an adventurous streak (willing to consider nutty things I want to do, like bungee jump)
- is good with kids and wants some of his own
- can cook so that I don't always have to
- likes all kinds of music, movies and books
- has to enjoy reading because I have sooo many books and I love talking about them and sharing them with people
- has a strong sense of family
- great sense of humour and laughs as much as I do (I often crack myself up)
- doesn't mind going to church especially on the special occasions (Christmas, Easter, etc.)
- is patient (especially with me when I'm frustrated about something)
- gives good hugs because a crappy day can sometimes be fixed with a really good bear hug
- has some interests different than my own so that we can teach each other things
- dependable but also independent

And probably the most important thing is he has to love me BECAUSE OF my faults and not IN SPITE of them. But all this is of course in an ideal world.

Maybe if I'm lucky writing this all down and sending it across the internet will work like it did in Mary Poppins where the kids wrote down what they wanted in a nanny and she appeared. *sigh* what a nice thought.

Well, it would seem that since I've finished my dinner and have rambled for long enough that it is now time to return to the moutain of work that towers before me.

C'ya.